The day started like it ended yesterday. Relaxed, with good energy, and a positive feeling. After breakfast Sophia and I went outside to plant more plants. We had fun.
I even cleaned the bathroom and made this delicious concoction which I found here. Our place smelled really good, I think I will make it again soon.
And then one little thing said by Theodore and a thousand interpretations went off in my mind, a million emotions felt and everything flipped. A big argument followed, many things were said that I rather forget about now. After sobbing and letting lots of tears roll down my cheeks I needed to do something other then paying attention to myself to get out of this mess.
What helped me feel better was making Sophia a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. (The simple little things and taking care of someone else, because clearly I didn't know how to take care of myself) I love taking care of her and am glad for the opportunities this independent girl gives me.
Theodore and I had a conversation that straightened everything out, like it always does.
Later I started chanting "Always have I loved Thee, ever shall I love Thee alone, Thee alone, Thee alone, Thee alone". No matter how sad and lonely I feel I always know that there is something bigger and stronger than me. Something that is love, within me and around me. My path is such a gift to me.
As a little gesture and out of embarrassment at my earlier outbreak I made Theodore a little treat serving ice cream with hot chocolate sauce all over it. He didn't need it, but like I said I needed it for my own conscience.
Tomorrow will be another day, another beginning, another chance to move on!
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